.alone in a crowded place.

.alone in a crowded place.

alone in a crowded place,

my heart beings to race.

eyes dart from side to side..

just want to find a place to hide.

utterly painfully shy, 

my eyes tear and i begin to cry.

thoughts clouded, wondering what they see

when they see shy, timid me.

when someone flirts, i forget my own name,

mumble back something pretty lame.

i hear my heart beating in my ears,

i'm ashamed of how i appear to my peers.

short of breath, my knees feel weak,

my anxiety attack is about to hit it's peak.

cheeks flushed, i stare at the ground..

lightheaded, i faint and fall down.

i come to and everyone stares,

they all laugh, nobody cares. 

no one understands panic attacks.

i have no friends to call me back.

with tears streaming down my face,

no longer alone in a crowded place. 

completely alone with all the lights out,

can't drown my thoughts or force a re-route. 

sleep will bring sweet peace..

eyes closed i begin to release.

alone in my solitude,

i now understand my doom.

no one will ever understand me..

apparently completely alone is what i'm meant to be. 

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