.asphyxiation.

.asphyxiation.

.my.cinquain.

asphyxiation

choking me

lack of air

my ode to thee

struggle

stop

no breath

force too strong

the dizzy spell begins

wheeze

pain 

lightheadedness ensues

stars surround me

my head is pounding

darkness

waking

light breaking

where am i

what happened here tonight

dope

hope 

now clean

can now breath

where i need to be

free

©Butteryevil 2012

.insecurities.

Current mood: thoughtful

.insecurites.

your insecurities are overwhelming me..
you're overwhelming me with your insecurities..

its like you're crying out to me
with your negativity..

if only you were as free...
with some positivity.

make some changes; stop complainin'
stop complainin'; make some changes.

be the change you want to see..
see the change you want to be.

the world is your instrument,
play it like a drum.

the more energy you give it,
the more your song is sung.

your life is your canvas,
paint it as you see fit.

you don't want to meet your end
like "man I didn't become shyt"

stop complainin'; make some changes
make some changes, stop complain'

if only you were as free...
with some positivity.

it's like you're crying out to me
with your negativity..

you're overwhelming me with your insecurities...
your insecurities, unleashed will set you free.

The Things That Made You You

~A Freestyle For Nana~

Wise words spoken at a time of overwhelmign emotions.

I sit on the beach with my toes in the sand,

Gazing out into the rolling waves.

I see your smiling face in teh sky's horizon.

Peace and serenity be unto you.

I smile because I see you safely made it to your Father's waiting embrace.

The things that made you who you were will never leave our hearts.

We will forever cherish the wonderful memories

you gave each and every one of us.

When we think of the things that made you you,

We smile with tears in our eyes. 

We cry but we are not mourning a loss.

We are honoring a person who earned her key to enter into 

heaven's gates.

A well deserved home going CELEBRATION.

So I won't b saying goodbye to you grandmother but what you always said to me...I'll see you later. 

So Long Friend.

I love you Nana.

S.Peterson

.Amtrak.

amtrak..amtrak..
won't you come back..come back..

stole my heart like a run away train.
i'd be lying if i didn't say u run thru my brain.

hindsight stay 20/20
wasn't til then that she appreciated the beauty.

"i'm calling you daddy..daddy..can you be my daddy"..
future is hazy..but you stay like my gandhi..

detroit ran away wit it..
but its ok..cuz you know distance ain't shyt.

cuz i can fly.
the part i dread is goodbye.

the connection i have with you..
can't be matched.
too long. too strong. too deep.
my love for you is something hidden that i keep.

thank you for everything.

When You're Dead.

When You're Dead.

When you are wanting to kill yourself.

When you are dead, arguing doesn’t matter.

People’s feelings don’t matter.

Money doesn’t matter.

Having a nice house doesn’t matter.

Don’t need a car.

Don’t have to worry about the next meal.

Or making ends meet.

Don’t have to make anyone happy.

Don’t need money.

Don’t have to keep a job or keep customers happy.

You don’t have to do anything at all…

But die.

Don’t have to worry about being in love or if they love you back.

Or if they will ever have or be tempted to have moments of infidelity.

Don’t have to do well in school or need a degree even.

Don’t have to listen to anyone yelling.

Just sleep.

Just peace.

Just die.

#paingoaway

#die #dead #death #suicide #murder #pain #go away

.sexual.fluidity.

sexual fluidity

sexual orientation

is it innate or fixed?

flowing like a stream 

water overtaking

reflections 

deeper then the ocean

pain untamed

pleasures fulfilled

lustful intentions

burning desires

smooth fluid motions

him to her; her to her then him to him

lips gently brush..

hands on your chest.

make it rain

bring the pain

the reciprocal of viscosity

your body pressed against mine

flow beautiful on each other

your river runs over on mine

my thoughts jumble

just like sexual orientation.

be who you are

you are the Creator's creation. 

a.haiku.for.james.

i see you for who you are.

beauty lies within.

your words make my heart melt deep.

xoxo