.disappear.

.dis·ap·pear.

you know..it's really not that hard to disappear.

faded away to the blackness.

find a way to have less.

don't make new friends and drift away from those you made.

fade away disappear.

start over.

pretend you were never here.

or never there.

move on, now the worries are gone.

do a name and phone number change..

nothing remains the same.

tweak your resume, seek a new profession.

meet new people, start over.

become the hostess not the wall flower.

hold wine and cheese parties with new faces,

new embraces..

excluding the graceless. 

wander into wilderness.

go off the grid.

become a new you,

learn to stay true.

disappear. 

have no responsibilities. 

fade away.

let go of petty things.

start over. 

stop being so shy.

break the cocoon, become a butterfly.

wave and smile at passers by.

live for today and not tomorrow.

forget yesterday.

pretend you were never there or here.

disappear. 

©Butteryevil2013

.love affair.

loosely based off of a movie called "28 hotel rooms"

please enjoy.

.love affair.

intertwined

his legs and mine..

in this love affair.

feels so wrong.. 

but it feels so right,

as we book these familiar flights.

no girlfriend, husband, or child

could slow down our mattress miles.

familiar smiles and sounds surround

our silly drunkin' wine nights go down. 

running through the hotel, playin tag

scoopin' me up against him

like a cherished louis vuitton bag. 

rooms change.

sheets change.

but the still the sex remains the same

28 rooms..

1 womb. 

seed fulfilled a husband's plea. 

torn between the two,

no room for sympathy. 

you married your girlfriend

but you want me divorced?

the sound of this argument,

ridiculous of course. 

I will never leave him,

I thought this was clear.

The thought pains you, 

you punch a wall, in tears.

The time we have,

let's cherish each moment.

after hotel keys are returned,

a longing for home hits. 

Missing daughter's hugs

and husband's jazzy tunes.

All though I love the both of them,

my love, I will see you again soon. 

keepin' this love alive,

until my well runs dry. 

in this love affair, 

his legs and mine,

intertwined.

©Butteryevil2013

.teeth.

teeth.

what does the tooth fairy do with all those baby teeth?

does she make them into a very nice condo and put it near front street?

maybe she drops them in the ocean..

a giant wishing well for her to make a wish of her very own.

what if they recharge her fairy wand to continue her flights through the night.

maybe she delivers them to outerspace to sparkle clearly deep into the night's light.

what does the tooth fairy do with all those teeth?

maybe it is a secret for her alone to keep.

teeth.

©Butteryevil2013

.homework.

.homework.

nothing is cleaner
than my apartment after
ignored homework waits

©Butteryevil2013

.barefeet.

.bare feet.

as i was strolling down the street,
i peeped a woman with bare feet.

looking for some friends to meet,
left foot then ..right foot touched concrete.

she wore a long hippie skirt
and some flowers in her hair.

but my eyes were fixated on her feet..
to which continued to meet the ground bare.

was a beautiful sight,
never seen anything like it.

choosing to be come one with nature
it didn't appear to seem that she minded.

walking down the busy college boulevard
she smiled and waved about.

with her positive presence,
most people could only point or shout.

she didn't shy away or hide from those she'd meet,
the fact that she was walking the street by choice with bare feet.

©Butteryevil2013

.the still.

to:Ms. Kimberlynne

.the still.

i'm a city girl living for the city thrill.
partying, laughing, and ability to be really chill.
travelled to a place to meet a man.
spur of the moment with years ahead planned.
in a quiet colorless room we lay in a colorless bed.
not one picture in sight
too may thoughts and emotions buzzing through my head.

it was silent, it was still.

couldn't quiet my mind's noise, too real.
it was quiet, could hear a pin drop.
the best students are those who listen.
the best teachers are those who are students.
quiet your brains roaring thoughts.

seek the quiet.
crave the still.

dwell in the silent.
be quiet.

in the still.

shh.
listen.
silence.

still.

©Butteryevil2013

.tears.

.tears.

burn
from inside
to the core
want to hide
hate the pain
feel the rain
burn
hate the pain
here comes the storm
then all that is left is tears
tears

©Butteryevil2013